Waves

Sometimes my mind just thinks and thinks and thinks and goes off wandering

And then I start doubting everyone.

Sometimes I worry, I fear

And then I start doubting everyone.

Sometimes I look into the mirror and I squeeze my belly and my butt

And then I feel disgusting.

Sometimes I think dark and horrible thoughts about other people

And then I feel disgusting.

Sometimes I feel powerful,

sometimes I feel useless,

sometimes I feel sadistic,

sometimes I feel masochistic,

sometimes I think that everyone must think I’m a nuisance, and that I’m just an egocentric prick,

but most of the time I’m just exhausted,

exhausted from all the thinking and overthinking that I do every waking moment.

I can’t stop, but maybe I’m just not trying.

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